I once thought that once a part of you dies, its gone forever and that its the most painful thing I had to go through. Sadly its not true. I died a few times already and each time hurt more than the last. I feel broken. I feel....... like a part of me is missing. So much pain and confusion runs through my mind that it makes me buckle to my knees and just....... quit.
But I never gave up. I never surrendered and I shall never do such a thing even down to my last breath. I guess you can say I'm strong willed. I should be a Green Lantern :-) Okay. Maybe not that much but my point is that, I don't know what to do or say right now, I don't even know what I'm feeling. One thing I do know is that there is one thing I want more than anything in the world.
See, I fell in love with the realest and most special person I've ever met. She is beautiful beyond words. She got eyes like I've never seen before. Her smile stops time. Her laugh? Makes my heart smile on its darkest hour. Her voice soothes like the soft ripples of a river. She is also one of the toughest cookies I know. lol. I spent a long time trying to break down any wall she kept up trying to guard her heart but guess what? I made it there anyway and its the warmest place I've ever been. She is very protective of many people and tries so hard to please so many cause her heart is that big. That greatest quality is also her biggest weakness. She's tries so hard but some people take advantage of that. She is strong willed for sure. If she wants something, she'll get it and sometimes people might see her as bossy or over-protective. Some may even say she doesn't like what to be told. You know what I say to that? BS!!!!
I know her. Sure things stress her out and she has to vent sometimes. Who doesn't? But what people don't see is who she is inside and those same people neglect how perfect she is. Let me tell you something, this woman has been through it all. Nobody wants a "perfect" girl. I can't stand women who swear they are God's gift to men cause they look good or they got a lot of men after them. They aren't nothing. This woman that I'm in love with? She's the real deal, she's perfectly imperfect as I say. Her heart is pure in the realest possible way. Sadly, sometimes she underestimates herself but you know what? Thats what I'm here for. I wouldn't hesitate to do anything for her. I would never leave her. I would never stop loving her. I tell her that she has my heart but you know what? That's an understatement. She IS my heart.
So no matter what I'm going through. No matter what I'm feeling. The one thing I know to be true is my undivided and loyal love for her. People want to come in the way of that and we may argue here and there but at the end of the day, I wouldn't want to be with anyone else. She is my future. I'm giving her my all and a little more. So basically, no matter who, what, where, when, how or even why.......... I love you baby. FYFM <3
And don't you ever forget it. EVER!!!
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