I Really Don't Mean It

I realized something today. Sometimes I screw up, sometimes I'm screwed. lol. But this isn't my confession. I knew that for a while. Nope. My confession is something that might be a little wierd for some people. Are you ready for it?........ you sure?....... ok then. I'll try and explain it as best I can then.

You know how people have a disagreement? It doesn't necessarily have to be an argument but it can be a difference that affects both people. Well, a lot of couple and friends, well, people in general go through it. Almost all of them, especially between couples and best friends, have something I call the "We're Gonna Be Ok Factor"

Well, I had a few of those. Some come and go but I see that one hasn't changed yet. At least not for me and that makes me smile :-) You see? When people have a disagreement, some people, like me, look for that "factor" to make sure that despite anything, we still love and care for each other. It's something as simple as a poke or something.

I can't lie, its even going on now. I said something kind of stupid today but, though I feel like the only dummy, I know its gonna be ok cause I'm getting that signal through Facebook. Yea. Facebook of all places. lol. Each time I get a poke now I'm smiling cause inside I know that its being sent with that same intention on the other end. *smh* Love has some weird ways to get a point across. lol.

So people, when people bug you about something silly, sometimes its those things that matter most and that you miss most when times are rough. Enjoy it. I know I am. I used to be like -______- really? must you poke me?....... now I'm checking to see if I got any and I'm cheesin' like a dork when I get one. You would think I'm actually getting poked in the stomach and giggling like the Philsbury Doughboy. lol. Anyways, basically, when I say stop poking me. I REALLY DON'T MEAN IT!!!! what I actually mean is, I WANT YOU CLOSER. I NEED YOU!!! so poke me more DAMMIT!! lol :-P

Well, thats my talking to you all that shall are "Semper in Corde Meo".

Stay beautiful people
-Jes