"Once You Hit The Bottom There Is No Where To Go But Up"

It's an odd saying but its definitely true. I find that its the phrases that are the most blunt that are the closest to real life. No fairy tale to life. I've been hurt and even broken where I felt the whole world break down on me. I fell in love with the most amazing woman I had ever met. Unfortunately circumstances caused so much stress and strain between us that there was no way to see which way was up. I had to understand that I can't be the hero and change everything, especially things outside of my control. I'm trying my best to be the best that I can be and it took until now for me to let go of everyone else's opinionated comments. Everyone has a point of view and everyone has their opinion to offer but its down to me to make those things true or not. I'm not the only person to be affected by such things. But the following goes to those who are supposedly are my "friends" and yes, those who are my "family"...... KEEP YOUR OPINIONS OF WHAT TO YOU SEE TO YOURSELF!! I tried so hard to explain myself and to help people understand my actions but you nod your heads in sarcasm cause you turn to everyone else and make another claim to me or about me to everyone else. Think thoroughly on all that you have to say and ask yourself: why am I saying this? Is my "advice" in par with my experience? If not, shut the hell up and swallow it. You all have brought me down to the deepest and darkest part of my inner being where I am shattered.

Unfortunately, in my years, I've had too many "friends" like this. They caused me to be very paranoid with everyone I'm with and I'm not letting you make any gesture for what is wrong with me or what I should do. You'll have me killed by your terms. The greatest treasure in my life is my deepest and truest love because she knows me. She understands me. She loves me and doesn't judge. We aren't perfect but we are the closest thing to it. We work. We communicate to a point of insanity that nothing, I mean NOTHING is kept from one another. I have the tremendous honor, matter of fact, I have the biggest blessing of falling in love with my best friend.

I say this clearly now so all may see. I WILL NOT, you all are witness, WILL NOT let the BLESSING SLIP THROUGH MY FINGERS CAUSE OF ANY OF YOUR ACTIONS!! Things were tough and actions were taken for a hope to better things but fact is, I never left I stood here waiting and I'll wait an eternity if I must. I LOVE HER in the deepest, purest and unbreakable way imaginable. She is my true friend, she is my deepest love, she is my Queen.

So this is me saying that I've hit rock bottom and look out cause I'm coming up and there is NO STOPPING ME!!!